Autodoll Dreams in a Decaying World

Story 15. “Because of That Love.”

Lydia plugged a Lightning Blade in the port on Yuuyami’s right wrist.
Lightning Blade was the fastest wired interface created by humankind.
That was the best way for wired transmission of information. Before the world’s collapse, was said that it would continue maintain top position for the next one hundred years.
Via that Lightning Blade were connected Yuuyami and Ohan.
Yuuyami’s port on the right wrist to Ohan’s port on the left shoulder.

“This one is ready.”

Lydia looked towards Rapha.

“Here is also arranged.”

Rapha set up two computers.
Lydia slightly nodded and inserted Lightning Blade into the left wrist of Yuuyami.
This one was linked with Rapha’s computer.

“Ohan.”

Said Rapha, and Ohan insert Lightning Blade into the port on his right shoulder.
Two computers, Yuuyami, and Ohan now were connected.
Lydia sprinted and sat in front of computer. To computer that was directly connected to Yuuyami, on the right side was Rapha.

“Speaking of which, Onee-chama.”
“Hm?”
“I finally got an answer for project that Onee-chama gave me.”
“Project?”
“…Onee-chama, did you, by any chance,​ forgot…”

In a twinkle, Rapha distorted her face, it felt like she was about to cry.

“Oh, I remember.”

She remembered just now, to be exact.

“I’m glad.”

Rapha eased her expression.

“And why so suddenly?”
“It’s not sudden. I was waiting for nice timing.”
“Is that so.”
“Yes, that’s correct. Aren’t we were thinking of the way to save Yuuyami, after I stopped crying?”

Right. Lydia with Rapha were pondering for about an hour until they arrived to single possibility.
If Yuuyami couldn’t handle the task alone, they must divide the load elsewhere.
To Ohan, for example.
Although his performance wasn’t so great as Yuuyami’s, Ohan still has a quantum brain. There shouldn’t be problems if they leave the processing to Ohan for about thirty percent.

“And as soon as method was decided we began preparations, aren’t we? For that reason I couldn’t say it earlier.”
“That’s right. So what’s the answer?”
“Until today, I expect the problem to be that I told you to take off your gloves.”
“Gloves?”
“Yes, that’s correct. Onee-chama was riding a motorcycle, so she must have felt colder than I did. Despite this, when I asked for a handshake, I requested you to take off gloves, right?”

Lydia was being silent.
By the way, she felt as if there truly was such an exchange. However, she wasn’t sure.
Thus, the answer she gave after thinking for a week was – gloves, as one would expect Lydia became speechless.

“Nevertheless, it was different. The correct answer, because every single word I said to Yuuyami was rude, right?”
“Correct.”
“Therefore, before Yuuyami wake up, that…”

Rapha cast her eyes downward​, her body was restlessly tremor​ing.

“What is it?”
“That’s, why, I’m, be, be.”
“You be? You be what?”
“I be, I beg your, pardon…”

After hearing these words Lydia widened her eyes.
Rapha apologised. Lydia was astonished, she didn’t consider Rapha as the type who apologise obediently.

“Ah, it’s fine, totally fine. If you understand, that’s enough for me. Besides, I’m sorry to call you ignorant an foolish. I’ll correct myself. Rapha not stupid but clever.”
“Naturally.”

With that line of Rapha, she cleary was being a tsun1.
She was complicated after all, Lydia thought.
Her attitude was changing so lightly, Lydia couldn’t grasp her.
Although Yuuyami was always monotonous, she was very easy to understand.

“Well then, let’s get started.” Said Lydia.
“Yes, correct. It’s very enjoyable for me to work with Onee-chama.”

Rapha smiled slightly and turned to the display.
Lydia verified and typed a code to reboot Yuuyami.
Right then,

“Aaaaaaahaahaah!”

Yuuyami raised a beast-esque voice.

Yuuyami thought it was happening again.
Emotional runaway, which couldn’t be processed.
It was complicated, mysterious​ and inconsistent, it ate up all the resources of Yuuyami.
However, she felt like it was a little easier than at previous time.
As evidence, Yuuyami was able to properly recognize her situation.
Ports on both of her wrists were opened and Lightning Blade connected. One was connected to computer and the other to another quantum brain.
Ah, is that so?
Yuuyami understood the reason as for why it was so simple.
Another quantum brain was a substitute for processing.
Then, perhaps, it was Lydia who came up with that idea.
The moment she thought about Lydia who was trying to help her, quantum brain was about to burn.

“Lydia…”

The name was said inadvertently.
When she thought about Lydia, emotions enlarged.
She knew. The true nature of this emotion was grasped last time before shutting down.
Therefore, as a matter of course, when she thought about Lydia that was a proper reaction.
I,
love,
Lydia.
So that what it was – a simple sentence.
Yuuyami seemed about to break from love.
Her love was too heavy, it was destroying​ her.
Yuuyami wondered, how humans could control this emotion filled with contradictions.

“Onee-chama! Ohan’s quantum brain can’t endure it!”

Rapha’s voice.
That’s right, thought Yuuyami.
Lydia requested help from Rapha, and Ohan was in charge of handling processing of Yuuyami.
She had to control it somehow.
However, her emotions ran wild endlessly.
She was trying to run past the end of universe.
In that universe, no one loves Lydia as much as she do. She calculated her intense affection to such a degree.

“Onee-chama! I’m begging you! Please unplug Yuuyami! Ohan will brake!”

Yuuyami thought, she didn’t want to destroy Ohan.
Didn’t want to hurt Rapha either.
Nevertheless,
she couldn’t shut herself down.
Couldn’t allow emotions to disappear. Couldn’t allow to lose Love for Lydia.
If she would fail this time, she might never see Lydia again.
That fear kept Yuuyami away from shutdown.
However,
either way,
if nothing will be done, her quantum brain would ignite.
Was that a situation when the one swallowed by fear.

“Lydia…”

Muster everything to.
Wish to, desire to.

“Detach it, plea, se.”

What it was?
A hope to see Lydia again.
If quantum brain burn, Yuuyami would die. And absolutely never see Lydia.
However, if she shut herself down, there was still a chance.
Although​ it was very scary. Although​ she truly scared.
Since she placed her trust.
Even if she all alone in the darkness,
a single thing she could do – imagine her appearance.

Lydia typed a command to shut Yuuyami down.
And cried.
She couldn’t help Yuuyami. That was the only way.
The sole method has failed.
There was no hope. She didn’t know how to save Yuuyami.
Perhaps, it could be solved by combining more quantum brains?
Most likely, no.
Lydia was convinced.
She believed that it wasn’t kind of information which quantum brain could processed, since it was destroying even Yuuyami.
Otherwise, she should have already seen some hope in that strategy.
How odd, Ohan was about to break so easily.
No, it wasn’t an ordinary information, it couldn’t been processed in Yuuyami at previous time.
Therefore, no matter how much she increase quantity of quantum brains, result would be constant.
Mistake was made in something more basic.
Perhaps, overlooked.
However she didn’t know where was mistake nor what has been overlooked.

“Onee-chama…”

Rapha tapped Lydia’s shoulder.

“It’ll be okay, it’ll be alright…”

Lydia wiped her tears. She couldn’t resign. Couldn’t lose Yuuyami.
She had to give it a thought. Have to ponder more.
At that time, Ohan, on his knees, approached Lydia.

“Ohan..?”

Lydia tilted her head.

“Alright. Ohan already back to normal.”

Said Rapha while looking at the display.

“Lydia, look.”

Ohan reached out and clutched Lydia’s head.
It didn’t hurt. Rather, it was a very gentle movement.

“What’s wrong, Ohan?”
“I love you.”

With that said, Ohan drawed Lydia’s face towards himself.
That seemed as their faces would likely to collide.
Up close, Ohan was still so sparkling and cool as always.

“What is this piece of junk talking about?

Rapha struck Ohan’s arm with her right hand.
And then, with teary eyes, said: “It hurts…”
She didn’t have to be so surprised, after doing things like striking a metal skeleton. Accordingly, Lydia ignored that.

“Thank you, Ohan.” Said Lydia. “But what happened so suddenly?”
“Yuuyami, Yuuyami, this was, a Yuuyami’s, information.”
“Eh?”
“Yuuyami, wanted Lydia-sama’sー” Ohan pressed his right finger on Lydia’s lips. “ーlips, she wanted to put her lips on yours.”
“Lips.., kiss…?”

At that moment, everything became clear.
Anything and everything grew a single road.
All street lights of which, were shining brightly, illuminating everything before her.
This sort of feeling.
Prior Yuuyami’s shut down, Lydia kissed Yuuyami.
She loved Yuuyami and couldn’t help it.

“Is that so, Yuuyami also wanted to kiss me.”
“Wha, what do you mean? Yuuyami doesn’t s, S, SA series, right?”
“I know. Yuuyami loves me and wants to kiss me, however couldn’t handle that emotion ー that urge.”
“Emotion?”
“You don’t have to believe, but I’m confident. It was emotion that evoke such a impetus and made Yuuyami behave strange.”
“No, I, believe, however, if so…”
“Uh-huh. There is no workaround.”

That was a problem.
Lydia’s prediction itself, was correct.
The emotion couldn’t be processed by quantum brain.
It was the most troublesome, most inconsistent and most destroyable emotion of human beings.
Even humans who have lived for many years were swayed by that emotion and, occasionally​, even resign​ed their lives.
Yuuyami, who was yet discovering various emotions, suffered a lot​.
No wonder​ she shut down.

“Wh, what are you going to do?”
“Think. However, let’s take a rest for today? It would be meaningless if our performance drops.”

Unlike Autodolls, humans could provide more efficiently if they take a proper rest.

“Understood. Well then, can we sleep together. Onee-chama!”

Rapha asked in delight.


  1. tsundere?; 

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